Have you ever felt overwhelmed with life?
Looking at other people and wondering, how can they be so happy?
This was me.
Leaving school at 15 years of age, knowing the leisure industry and not an office environment was
where I want to work, I became a life guard, after a few months I had a seizure, it was devastating. I lost my post.
Finding a college opportunity to become a leader in various sports, loving it and challenging myself
although some were just too big for me and I would refuse to do them. This left me feeling like a
failure.
Having the belief that I was not clever enough for university, I found myself working in an office
environment in the NHS.
It was only a “stop gap”
23 years later I was still there... WHY?
I had FEAR... Was I good enough to do anything else?
In 2008, my life started to crumble, leaving my marriage of 18 years.
The empty feeling still there, no matter what, it was never good enough, I would continually buy
things, thinking it would help me feel better.
In 2012, leaving the NHS all burnt out, overweight, now facing financial challenges. Setting my own business up coaching children in physical activity.
Still facing challenges, working hard to keep my life on track, offering my time to others volunteering and not having time for me.
In 2018 I became more aware of personal development and just as the world went into lockdown, I
went deep into working on myself with a coach, clearing the beliefs that had been there for so long. Starting to use TARC EFT to clear the trauma of my life experiences.
During this time, I became aware that the reason I did so many things, being unable to say “No” was me the people pleaser. What would people think? Looking for validation.
Can I take the action to take the responsibility for my life?
Am I able to validate myself?
Stop running away from challenges.
What would allow me to believe in myself? On the 29th July 2022, I started the Pennine Way, with a friend Gill. After 2 days Gill was unable to continue and I stepped up, I took on the challenge to
continue the journey solo.
On Sunday 14th August, I set off on the final part of the Pennine Way full of emotion, crying on the
decent to Kirk Yetholm, knowing that I would be completing a challenge I had put off for 14 years.
I had finally found the belief in myself and now that is a reason to celebrate ME.
